But one dark day I was so damn sick, thought I was gonna die, the voices in My head said that I did. But I guess then, while I was dead, I remember hearing a voice and it went like this: "Fast Life huh? This the shit you like? Mountains of Money, Villages of Vixens, Harvests of Hemp, Guns Galore. Trade it for the Power and become a Lord. You'll have everything you have 45times more. You can have Love and be deeper in tune with your emotions, you'll be able to cast a spell over any Divas that approach ya. Want more money you can buy more guns, more weed, achieve all your dream." I said 'what about knowledge.' They said "If that's your choice, but you'll have to sacrifice all the women, all the weapons and toys, you'll be on a different plain and can't get back your boys, think this shit over before you make that choice." I said 'I had it all to impress My Grandfather and now He gone, My Life ain't shit don't know what I'm living for, My family fell apart, all I got is these jobs, these responsibilities that come wit these broads, and My soldiers don't have targets so My Campaign over, these herbs and leaves make Me sick, I might as well be sober'. The Voice said: "I can give you knowledge if that's your final wish, you'll be redirected to your childhood wit. The curiosities all that come with. You'll never get enough and some of the thoughts you won't want, you'll intake so much you won't know which to trust until you practice what you learn and the error could cause you to blow up, you gotta share it to but be careful selecting who, once you do it's up to them to use. Some will even turn it back on you" I said ' Fuck all that, I'll keep My mind in tact. I'm on the top now so how hard can it be to bounce back?' "So mote it be, it is knowledge that you'll seek. But you dumb fucker that was already part of your destiny, you turned down the offers that were laid before ye, Now I'll give your health back but in turn take 3. 3 Souls that you'll only get to see again at the crossroads. Since it's knowledge that you want, then knowledge upon ye shall it bestowed.'
I woke up scared because the ache was away from My head, I jumped out the bed, energetically fed. Tripped over a book and fell into the door. Picked the shit up and decided to get Me some more. So I study everything that I wanna incorporate, into My DNA so that even when I pass the knowledge won't be able to escape. Little did I know that every where I would go to acquire wisdom from an Elder upon My departure they would croak. But I can communicate with those souls, thought I defied the Odds, studied more and practice magicke turning Myself into a God. Text messages and phone calls from Broads, Pregnancies were the subjects but I have no seeds at all. Felt like I was fucked, in a stupid rut. Everything I accomplished was diminished or unjust. Lost My Dream jobs, dropped like 3 broads, My father took My Gun, some of My money and My inherited car. I felt more than lost.
Vision Quests I let My Spirit Walk. Buying books and finding people with teachings for the soaking up. Meeting Pimps, Thieves and Hustlers alike. Getting respect from Preachers and gettin' head from dykes. State to state, energy I absorb and bring it back to share in the city of which I was born. Going around the Nation to Libraries first. Where the fuck was the money coming from if I was broke. The women of course, they fed and clothed Me, invited Me to their places so they wouldn't be lonely. We took trips and shit but I still had to dip. Fuck the Money, Weed and Pussy I got knowledge to get. Learning more and more increasing My Power. Books weighed about 50lbs but I had them all at all times and took notes and everything, of everyday. Others states found jobs using the techniques of influence from some of the books (48 Laws of Power, Fun with Hypnosis, How to Get Anyone to do Anything) meeting bitches too well hoes from books like (Gentleman Pimp by Stonewall Jackson, The Art of Seduction by Robert Greene, Pimp Instructional Manual/Guide by Mickey Royal).
Stopped traveling and went to school and knew most of the curriculum. Graduated with a 3.8 (Kinesiology was hard as fuck)2008. Sped up a couple years. 2012 I just bought I book that explains thoughts I had when I was 7 and I lost 4 kids and 3 elders...7 ppl I shared knowledge and everything I learned in 2005 is active NOW 7 years later. Not too long ago I got a book from Akult777 that talked about Alchemy, Tarot, Chakras, Marital Arts uses for Energy & Pressure points. The same shit I documented in My Own Journal.
In 2003 I had everything I wanted and gave it all up for everything I wanted to know, even though it was everything I was already thinking. The catch... All this knowledge acquisition, Widsom transmutation, and teachings/mentoring. The Price I pay is that everyday I get tempted or invited to join a group or of like a fraternity or secret society. And they go to the extremes when I turn them down and when I choose to ignore them instead of battling or properly declining a Major devastation occurs. The sad part is I vow that I shall never indulge their desires and I study all that they know...most is dark magicke and mind manipulative politics. So at anytime they can strike.
Some of the stuff I have to do to defend them drains Me of energy and Life Force, which I have to receive from others, whether they share My knowledge or not they have to believe in Me or give Me permission to receive their energies. If I would have chose Power, I would have some of this knowledge, If money I would have been consumed by it, greedy and lost it all and been a long term slave to it, built it back up just to repeat, if I chose Love I would not have discovered Unconditional Love or Universal Affection, it would have been Localized and concentrated and became FATAL. The choice I did make was the only way to have freedom because I can write My Own book and study that Knowledge. But it's still hard because of the sacrifices I had to make and the things I know drive Me crazy sometimes. Everything at once would have forced Me to commit suicide so I take it in moderation. Sharing it is a must, hoarded knowledge morphs into a strange perversion, and insanity. Though to those who have not been awakened or Enlightened (the Highest achievement of All knowledge & Wisdom, logical & practical) they think I'm crazy. I think they are puppets. Some of what I know I've shared and it has back fired on Me, some ppl died due to misused spell craft that I have to take the blame and be responsible for because it was I who brought that knowledge to these individuals. But Life continues and ever grows. Some Dark, some Righteous. I work for the Greater Good though the quickest result come from My Diabolical practices. Please forgive Me.
My reason for this blog if you even read it all. Was to help you understand that the choices you make in life Alter the World you live in. If We all work toward The Greater Good, We can resurrect Paradise. But those who will give into the other temptations, will cause turmoil and deceit to plague the planet and endanger it's inhabitants (human, animal, plant, stone, element). Find meditation and decode your DNA and transform it to channel your Higher Self. I encourage you.
Choose Wisely for the Source is always watching and awaiting to correspond the decisions you make.
All this entry to produce Pure, Free, Abundant energy to all who seek knowledge and heal those who made negative decisions and allow us the right to provide positive vibrations to the Earth's soul for the Greater Good.
Let this message travel to the Source and return transmit to the Universe 8 Fold.
My Will Be Done
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